我是个第三者?!

life is harder, death is peaceful, smooth.

memory

leave night , Not a sound from the pavement
Has the moon lost her memory
She is smiling alone
In the lamplight
The withered leaves collect at my feet
And the wind begins to moan
Memory, all alone in the moonlight
I can smile at the old days
Life was beautiful then
I remember the time I knew what happiness was
Let the memory live again
Every street lamp seems to beat
A fatalistic warning
Someone mutters and the street lamp sputters
and Soon it will be morning
Daylight
I must wait for the sunrise
I must think of a new life and I mustn't give in
When the dawn comes Tonight will be a memory too
And a new day will begin

Burnt out ends of smoky days
The stale court smell of morning
A street lamp dies Another night is over
Another day is dawning
Touch me,
It is so easy to leave me
All alone with the memory
Of my days in the sun
If you'll touch me,
You'll understand what happiness is
Look, a new day has begun...

午夜,大地一片死寂
月亮是否失去了她的记忆
她独自在那里微笑
灯光下,凋零的落叶在我脚下堆积
而风也开始低泣
回忆,孤零零地站在月光里
我可以梦到过去的日子
那时生命曾经美丽
我还记得自己知道什么是幸福的岁月
请让回忆中的一切再度来到这里

每一盏街灯似乎都在发出致命的警讯
有人喃喃低语,而街灯也在噼啪作响
很快就会是清晨了
白日, 我得等待着太阳升起
我得想出一种新的生活
我一定不能把希望绝弃
当黎明到来,今夜也将成为回忆
而新的一天也将开始

烟雾弥漫的日子烧尽的两头
清晨腐败冰冷的气息
一盏街灯死去,又一个夜晚逝去
又是一天的黎明
抚慰我,要离开我真的太容易
让我独自留在回忆里
回想着我灿烂的过去
如果你碰碰我,你就会了解什么是幸福
看哪,新的一天已经开始

Amazing grace

Amazing Grace
  amazing grace, how sweet the sound that saved a wretch like me
  I once was lost, but now i'm found ,was blind, but now I see
  It was grace that taught my heart to fear and grace that fear relieved
  how precious did that grace appear the hour i first believed
  through many dangers, toils, and snares i have already come
  'tis grace has brought me safe thus far and grace will lead me home
  how sweet the name of jesus sounds in a believer's ear ,
  it soothes his sorrows, heals his wounds and drives away his fear
  must jesus bear the cross alone and all the world go free
  no, there's a cross for everyone and there's a cross for me
  when we've been here ten thousand years bright shining as the sun,
im sorry
thats only thing i can say to you
i tried to avoid it as i relly do not know how to bring it up, it not only hurt you but myself as well. im so bad. i think im not going to forgive myself forever. but i will do what exactly what you said, i will dream what i want to dream, go where i want to go and be what i want to be. and all this things i will just do for you! im not intend to hurt you, i just want to concentrate first and sum my life up first. then , wait until a right time when i can responsible for everything that i decide. and you will never lost me as a friend. there is one thing i need to tell you seriously. you are really perfect and best in my heart. i will not thank you here cos it will always in my heart.

where im i...

im a just like train travelling with high speed without knowing wher im going... it just feel so lost. it may be a cliff i dun know,
death is so easy and peaceful but life is so hard

我好难过

我觉得我是真的迷路了,找不到方向。。。
我突然觉得,这么久以来,好像都是我自己一直在自作多情。是失望还是失落,我也不知道。
好难过。。。。。。